I no longer live

I no longer live / I just merely, barely exist
no longer contributing to the universe in which
I persist / soulless with no motives
and knowing the gates to Heaven already opened
for me to go in though / my path is chosen
so I walk but proceed in slow motion
hoping that I could steal a few precious moments
or go unnoticed at least until I’ve grown old and
had a long life to live / but when I’m thinking of
the life I live /  I much rather give it up
nobody’s benefitting from a mere presence
that in essence is really better off dead and
never mentioned again / and forgotten
no need to hide behind lies just be honest
I understand what you say without talking
and it seems to me you say I’m no longer wanted